SAVE ME FROM MYSELF...

I have been running away from my own life.
I prayed to God late last year to show me all I had to do this year,
Friends I needed to keep, people I had to let go, literally everything.

He showed it to me and I was thrilled.

I loved what I saw, but I was too lazy to put in the work.

The woman I saw sort of had everything figured out but the woman I see in myself knows nothing about figuring things out.

The woman I saw commands the room and nations but the woman I saw everyday was very scared to raise her voice.

The woman I saw was a great friend and loving sister, but somehow I was running away from my friends because I thought things could be figured out alone.

The woman I saw replaced dirty habits with good ones, and somehow I yielded to that,
I started playing chess, and I also hit the gym.

I loved the woman I saw, and expected her to emerge while sitting and doing nothing.
She is me, so she would come either way.

Little by little, I doubted if what I saw was real,
Maybe he knew he kept showing her to me.

I ran away for months, but this woman kept showing up and waiting for me to crawl into becoming her, there was a deadline so it either I slowly crawl, stand and fall and stand in her or I just sit down and watch her walk away.
She was too good to be true, it made me wonder if God checked the name before he assigned it.

I kept running away because somehow, as humans, we feel we do not deserve the good things God has for us, and our minds are limited to how far he can go..
We are playing God for God.

Things changed….

I saw what God wanted me to see, I embraced it, and I started working towards being that woman I felt would just walk into me.
I loved her, and I went back to the ONE that showed her to me for help, and slowly things are dying, and great things are resurrecting.

Anytime I read through the book of Job what always fascinates me was God bragging about Job to the devil, like He was so sure what Job could do.
I mean, if God can brag about someone then, He can brag now,
What if he is bragging to his angels about me?
What if he said I will show Priscy a glimpse of what ahead her and I know she will put in the work to be that woman I have called her to be.

What if he is bragging about you?
Those thoughts that won’t leave you, what if he is putting those in your heart because He trust that you would bring it to life?

My flesh is lazy and very weak, and I ask that God save me from myself.

So please allow God to show off with your life,
If he has said he will do it, then he will do it.
Allow God to paint that beautiful picture, allow him to brag with your life.

Please.

I will keep asking God to save me from myself.

Your Friend,

Priscilla Ohiezemede